your sms

babe, do u still remember u told if i wan to runaway you wont be stopping me coz u dont like to force ppl. if i really do, u will let me go free and said nice to know me. that was so hurt. u promised wanna bring me along with your bike. i worried that u didnt sleep well. i texted you with contain "babe, dont u feel tired". U said "nope. i don have to be tired bb". i wondered whether you miss me. and you said u r too bz u cant do anythg even you miss me. when i writing this message, my tear is dropping frm my heart. you don wanna let me go but u din do anythg. y jz cant you tell me directly what's in your mind. i still missing you but seem like every msg sent to u din get any reply. made me gv up on doing anythg. short n sweet memories we had... still remember you called me "org jahat" still remember the first morning call, the first met... are these on your mind still??? love you babe

missing ?

Babe, been more than 2 weeks no any news frm you. No reply frm any message that i sent to you? Make me feel i not even a stranger. You still smile and say hi to stranger. Who am i then ? not even a friend that can be? if you feel more comfortable to stay what you doing now, i will respect what you are doing. let 2 frens become to the strangers that nvr meet in the same world. don't worry about what am i going to treat you. Letting go you now cause i know i cant have you ever but i do hope u still call me "babe".
Y i chose to quit my job? reason being is before committed in any relationship, i would like to do what i plan to do like doing some charity activities or work as volunteers. Dont know how would be if there is no internet connection n calls free for 2 weeks. Wont be seeing you frm FB. wont b knowing your updated status. hope i can use to it frm the 1st day there.
still missing you here.

the sweet memories

even it not last long but the sweet memories ending with memories in my mind. it was really sweet every single morning calls. one day, when i was rushing to work. i chatted with you in the car. i heard mummy was around you. i wondered mummy listening what we saying. i asked you whether mummy asked you who you are chatting with. You texted me "mum wan to see you tonite. how bb? how i wish i could be the gal that you bring home to see your mum. that's will prove that i m in your heart. I m the someone special. I dont know you read all my notes here. Seem like all my hopes on you has gone after let you read my expression.
Babe,do u still remember that was a nite you were here and wanna to meet me up for drinks. But i have smthg on. you were dinner with your friends. after taken your dinner, you went to MPH @ Gurney. You called up and chatted with me while i was taking my dinner. You called me"orang jahat". We were arguing with some nonsenses. After 2 days we met, you called me the same thing "orang jahat". During the dinner we had, do u still remember you asked how is my fingers. Babe i wish you could care me as much as you can. Jz the little concern, that was sweet and memorable for me.
You posted a msg in FB "miss you but yet you are far frm me...make me let it go..." if this message you wanted to show me, i m sure that you are not falling into me deeply if yes distance will never be apart, it's the heart that breaks the love. i hope you read this and understand my feeling.

still...

jz dont know why... you create hope for me and you grab it back from me. I was so happy when you said that you will go short trip with me. But end up you jz left me w/o any message. we dont have chance to chat at all again ? we dont even have chance to have date again ? how sad when both friends become strangers ? when you posted a message in FB "dont promise me things. i dont trust words. i trust actions." i surely know you got what i did for you. But sad that u dont even wan to respond. "you're like a target i always try to aim at. How i wish i could aim you at my heart. but everytime i fail, i feel so sad. You know y? it's becoz i always end up missing you.
Still recall the last "miss you" frm you? it was on a Sat morning 7th May. Frm that moment, our relationship getting far and far and now we r like strangers.

babe, i love you

babe, i wanna share my love life here with you. since i was 14 already committed in my first love. it last for 13 yrs. all while there were few guys came after though...but i dont know y i jz don have any intention with them at all. i donno how to prove you that my love on you is true. you might think that i m jz playing fool with you. i will nvr did that to anyone. i dont want to waste my time on anyone that i dont have feel with as what you did. i have you to hate me in telling you the truth but i got nothing even a reply frm you. wish you do appreciate me as i appreciate you. miss me as how am i missing u there. i know you have someone in your heart. I don wanna gv up on caring on you. i really feeling sad coz i din feel my true love here. if you wish to keep silent and don let me know the answer why dont you delete me from your list instead.
when i met you, i felt happy because God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.
I liked your status just to drag ur attention...commented upon yours worthless status just to show that "you are in my heart, my care on you"...
It's like a dream, once awake you wont get what you've dreamed.
I did whatever i can for you.
it needs courage to tell a person "i love you". it contains commitment, trust, understanding, caring, communicate, respect ...

i will prove you wrong

babe, u might fall into someone that you love. i know i m here jz to see and greet you the best and cant do anythg anymore. I cant have you. we planned to go for a short day trip but after showing you my blog u went missing again and posted all the msges to drag my attention to show that you're actually in love with someone. I thought that we can have the sweet moment again together. Do you know all your words made me feel bad. I dont believe whether what i said is not true. Since given up on the first love, it had been few guys came after but i dont have intention at all with them till we meet. the feeling on you really strong. babe, i miss you everyday. i know we dont have chance anymore to upgrade your status. i hope you stay happily there always. Time will prove you that i in love with you.

what's in your mind...

on the 18th July, i was back frm KL to Penang. During the long journey, our sweet times kept surrounding my mind. i took the initiative to gv you a test asked you for supper. You were there with me for an hour. These few days i posted what's in my mind in FB. You replied me with some words that made me confused. What's in your mind? i really hope you are here with me when i feel empty. I wish your shoulder is always there whenever i need it. The someone that i mentioned is "u" , my babe. My shoulder is reserved for somebody. The somebody is "u" , my babe.
I really want to know what's in your mind. Y you left all these words there to make me feel confuse? i dare not to ask you again coz i scared i really scared i miss you again.